Stress

Prepare for useless rant.


Well. yeah. It's just school and grades and shit like that that are super stressing me out right now. It's midterms week, and grades close on Friday. I have a 79 in History right now, and that's the worst quarter grade I've ever had, except the time I failed a quarter of Freshman English for not handing in a major project. Yeah, I'm one of those annoying Asian peoples who get's A's on everything (ok not really, I get a couple B's here and there too but..you know what I mean. Or at least, I hope so because IDK what else to say) and I can't lie, I definitely deserve it if you look at how much effort I put into the class. Which is like. zero. The thing is, I was going to drop the class (It's AP US History...fml lol) in the beginning of the 2nd quarter because I noticed I wasn't really putting in the effort. But then I got a 19/20 on a multiple choice quiz (basically everyone else in the class fails them, they are apparently hard... oh and the one I got wrong was 'cause I read the question wrong...when CHECKING my answer so I changed it from the right answer to the wrong answer >_>) and I guess I convinced myself that minimal effort would be fine for the class. Well. screw all my stupid talents, I wish I'd dropped the class while I still had a 94. Well. IDK. Anyways. It's just really stressful, because my teacher doesn't grade ANYTHING until really late. So like I said before, grades close on Friday. So he finally puts in the grades for 2 more things (the entire quarter grades = 1 participation grade and that Multiple Choice quiz I mentioned earlier) - one is an essay we wrote during FIRST QUARTER, and I got a C on it. It's like, this isn't even relevant to what we're learning right now and I can't use this... because it's from FIRST QUARTER!!! and it's killing my grade! and the other thing was another multiple choice quiz that I bombed because I studied the wrong section lol. Oh and I also got sick last Sunday, and am still freaking sick, and was out of school from Thursday... idk idk there isn't time to fix the grade, and it's like... I'm pretty good at school, usually but then I'll have this one stupid grade that's horrible and the rest are pretty good (I mean... like... A-'s are good right? .___. idk how some people maintain A+ averages...) and then it's build season for Robotics (If you don't know what that means, I recommend extensive research on "FIRST Robotics Competition" and trust me it will enrich your life forever.) and I haven't done any prep for Science Olympiad. Well I thought I was doing pretty well, since I actually raised my Bio and English grade 12 and 10 points respectively, but those differences don't look like much with the freaking C+ that sticks out like a freaking sore thumb (well, it's next to my math grade which is an 83, but I can live with an 83 in freaking calc).  and I really have tried prioritizing schoolwork over my extracurriculars (because a lot of people who look at my life blame the fact that I'm so goddamn busy) - this is what happens: Oh, yeah I wanna go do (Science Olympiad/Robotics/Artwork) but I haven't done my school work. Well school comes first. (opens textbook) (gets distracted by facebook or something. Or nothing, sometimes. I've wasted time doing apparently nothing before. Not even facebook or something. Just like. Sitting. idk.) 8 hours later. Crap. I've done absolutely nothing, not even any extracurricular things that I really care about. And that's even more frustrating. I mean, I don't even have anything to blame it on and I'm even less productive than when I don't have the "right" priorities.

Well shit, I don't know any US History. Or Biology. Or French.

/rant